Acid Reflux AKA One of the delightful ways binge eating disorder has messed me up.
Binge eating disorder has killed my body’s ability to regulate stomache acid so I live with acid reflux. It can be pretty nasty waking up in the middle of the night with burning vomit coating my throat.
My regular Dr recently had me go through a 14 day course of Prilosec and it worked wonders. Acid reflux mischief managed. Little did I know I was actually just teetering on the edge.
Enter Vyvanse, the Stealthy and Unpredictable.
I’ve had a little sour tummy the last few days but I’m rough and tough so I bucked up, rubbed some dirt on it and walked it off – so to speak. Until today when I was defeated by….
…Hot Chocolate, the Insidious.
I managed to cajole myself into believing that the steadily increasing nausea couldn’t possibly have anything to do with the cozy cup of cocoa I was consuming until about half way through it. Even I could no longer self-delude.
HOLD ON HERE!! If I want my binge eating disorder symptoms to abate, I can’t drink hot chocolate? Kill me now!
(Insert BIG hyperbole warning here. I’m not actually considering suicide. I shouldn’t have to say, but I’m sayin.)
Is this an acceptable trade-off?
I. Am. Nauseous. My stomache is so bloated and acidy, it’s reaching up into my chest. Graphic? Yeah. It’s horrid.
So, is that how this works? I don’t feel like binge eating because I can’t handle ingesting things any more? Is this better? What about pizza, beloved pizza? Don’t even go there, Susan.
How sick in the head does it make me if I answer, “Yes, I would give up hot chocolate if the trade off is not needing to binge eat.” ?
If you’re a fellow sufferer, you’re considering it. Be honest. You are. Diminish the horror of binge eating disorder by giving up a favorite junk food? Would you trade one for the other?
Yes.
Until I’m feeling cocky and decide to try hot chocolate again. What’s the worst that can happen?
I’m Susan Scot Fry, the author of “A Year of Significance”. In 2020, I take on the greatest nemesis of my life: Binge Eating Disorder. With a side of aplomb sauce. Honest, occasionally humorous and sometimes I swear.
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